Stop it right now.

I guess  I am tired of playing the victim, you know? Actually, let me tell you how ~funny it is that most of the posts I write the word tired, right? I should be tired of being tired. In fact, I am. In fact, I am tired of everything! I am tired of always doing or saying the wrong things, thinking so much abaout everythng, worrying so much abour everything, caring so much about everything... I am just ridiculously tired of being sooo tired!
Why do I have to have this old thinking about 'popular people and not popular peole'? It feels like I study in a usa high school, jeez. Why have I been dealing with such a low self-steem lately? Why am always thinking about the amount of friends of people? Why am I always thinking about 'likes' and stuff? Why am I always thinking about what other people think of me? And why do I worry about it? Why don't I start thinking about me a little bit more? Why don't I aprecciate myself a little bit more? Why does people have to act so badly sometimes? Why I think about all of this all the time?
I HAVE TO STOP. This is so full of crap.
Reading this makes me sound like a maniac (weird) but my head is so full of shit! I need to clereafy my mind and start a new me. A more relaxed, smart, nice, talking, pretty (ok, superfecial alert) me. But not become obsessed about everything. Just chill and be more 'active' in life. Not wasting time with shit.